I hope I never become “too busy” for moments like these.
I was chatting with a friend lately about this momhood thing and how I’ve been recently convicted that I don’t want Ryder to grow up only seen the part of my face that he can see you from behind my cell phone. Not all of what I do in a day is scrolling. I’m taking pictures of him, chatting with my mom, sisters, and friends. I’m making plans to go on coffee dates. I’m reading books, practicing my Spanish, and yes, also scrolling social media.
But lately I’ve noticed that none of those things aren’t nearly as important as this moment of me laying on a blanket at the park looking up my the pure joy on my sins face as I hold him in the air.
I didn’t even have my phone out. I asked josh to come snap a pic to send to our parents who are all out of town. But in that moment, I was reminded that I want more moments like this. More moments when Ryder can see my whole face and look into the eyes of his mama watching him. Not from behind her phone or from a place of distraction & checking on him, but when he has my full undivided attention.
So goal for the next 30 days — 1 hour of phone time a day + lots of full face stares at my baby boy.
Xo, Hil
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